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About Me Member Non-Fiction Writer polaireFemale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 5 Years
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not a pretty girl.

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she is no ragdoll.the house is dark and silent as i crawl out of bed and tiptoe to the window. my fingers find their way into my mouth and i wait noiselessly by the window. a flash of red, and his car pulls up outside my house. he finally arrives, as always, later than we'd arranged. i pull my fingers out of my mouth and press them up against the cold glass, hesitating for a moment before slowly pushing the window open. he is already by the window, scowling. my hand finds its way into his and his arm encircles my waist to softly drop me onto the lawn. he swiftly pushes the window back until only a sliver is left, enough for tiny fingers to pry it back open, bu she is no ragdoll.
by ~polaire
24 failures, 24 tries.i lie awake in bed listening to the rain beat against my windowpane. the house is dark except for the faint glow emitting from underneath my door; my bedside lamp is always on and i go through more light bulbs a month than you can count. It always comes down to lying awake in bed.   
my nights always start off with words - i originally kept a diary in hopes of awkward childhood nostalgia but after a while, it didn't seem to work and by then, i kept a diary out of habit and sanity, to keep the chapters of my life from obliterating into the encompassing spaces of life. my daily events are neatly listed in chronological order, staring 24 failures, 24 tries.
by ~polaire
not so soft.somehow i always took savannah for granted. she was a quiet girl in black sitting behind me in class. my photo negative best friend. ever since we were in kindergarten, she and i had been best friends. the teachers sometimes considered us one entity.   
our personalities clashed; i never understood why she would never talk and never cried. it made me seem like a baby sometimes, always crying in front of her. i tilted the newer, light desk back, the plastic seat bending against her old wooden left-handed half desk. she wasn't left handed, but all the other desks had been taken. she made a face and grunted something before shoving me not so soft.
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not a pretty girl.
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Mon Jan 3, 2005, 4:28 PM
i'm writing this to ask all of you a favor, whether you are devwatching me or you just stumbled across this. please take a minute to email the abuse team and help me get my neopets account, silverainbows, back. it has my beloved blade on it, and i don't see the point of being on neopets without him. not that i'd quit if i didn't get him back, but i'd really like to make the effort to get into my account again. i got hacked about a year ago by some idiot, and i finally decided to do something about it. all you have to do is simply write something along the lines of "hello, i know jen, her username is 'iamjen', and she used to have the account 'silverainbows.' she was hacked, and i think she deserves to get her account back." i'd really appreciate it if you did that for me, and would love you forever. thank you for your help. :heart:

send your emails to abuse@neopets.com.
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  • Current Residence: a little plastic castle
  • Interests: boys; coffee; love; music; prose
  • Favourite movie: amélie; breakfast club; edward scissorhands; thirteen
  • Favourite band or musician: afi; bright eyes; frank sinatra; nirvana; norma jean; pink floyd
  • Favourite genre of music: 80s; classic rock; oldies
  • Favourite artist: chaka; kauri; kheleksul; kurt halsey; makani; mikilana; nikker; pistaches; tonypapesh
  • Favourite poet or writer: francesca lia block; sarah dessen
  • Favourite photographer: larafairie; samtabsav
  • Favourite style of art: emotional
  • Operating System: my heart
  • MP3 player of choice: ipod mini
  • Shell of choice: the gas station
  • Wallpaper of choice: black
  • Skin of choice: warm
  • Favourite game: gta: san andreas; life; neopets
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  • Favourite cartoon character: ickis from 'aaahh!!! real monsters!'

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:iconmidorikaida:
~MidoriKaida Feb 21, 2006, 4:38:57 PM
:megaphone: I'm moving to my new account. o;



Just letting all of my watchers know. (:

:heart:

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:iconlacaffeine:
~lacaffeine Jun 10, 2005, 9:12:34 AM
hii, i came across you from the "neighbors" search option. i adore your "not so soft" piece. i will be watching for more. ;D ah florida sucks. we now have 2 tropical storms near us. ;/

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~tashue May 9, 2005, 6:48:10 AM
Hola x3. This is my new deviantid, previously chemisterie <3. Watching you xD.
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~trinacobrajet Mar 6, 2005, 12:04:02 PM
I don't know what to think any more.

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*Axedrial Feb 11, 2005, 3:29:35 AM
~polaire
is so strange.
is a Non-Fiction Writer
is Female
is a deviant since Nov 17, 2004, 5:50 PM
has 1,000 pageviews
is located in United States
last visited 4d 18h 43m 28s ago
is currently
is an AIM user; ruine des idylle

ummm....yay? :\
:iconpistaches:
~pistaches Feb 9, 2005, 2:58:49 PM
You are really fucking messed up.
And you did this all to yourself, so don't try and blame it on me or Keri or Sam or anyone else.

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all men, like birds, must die.
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!Khentkaw Feb 27, 2005, 1:57:45 PM
I must say, I sleep easier now about every insult you've thrown at me... because I can just laugh.
You call yourself "a writer at heart." I call you a talentless shitpot desperate for someone's attention.

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"... And please send plush bonnet number 29d8077."
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~samtabsav Feb 9, 2005, 2:01:14 PM
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If deception had a face, I can't help but wonder if it would be yours.

That's not okay, Jen. You know it's not okay, but you do it, time after time. And I'm not okay with that.
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~samtabsav Feb 9, 2005, 2:04:15 PM
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Holy fuck, Jen. Holy fuck.
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